Been there many times myself. In my case I brought most my problems upon myself. Other cases, we have no idea what the Lord has in plan for us. However, in any case....the Lord has a plan for us. I will pray for you. On a side note, I'm going through some difficult times myself. I know it doesn't make your problem any better or less important. Just trying to say that your hurting is not alone in this world. Don't know if I made much sense in that statement, but you are truly in my prayers.