Fellow friend of Bill W as well. Vodka was also my spirit of choice.Congratulations on such a long term. I fell off the wagon a time or two over my 30 years, but retired from my career about three years ago and found that in doing so I had also lost my motivation to imbibe. I've been clear for those three years, but I still purchase the spirits when the wife and I entertain. I also like to cook, so I may try the vodka pie crust trick. My feeling like you described came a few years before I quite drinking, but after I had put down a 3 pack a day smoking habit. I felt like I had dodged a bullet when I could visit with friends at a bar and have drinks, but not relapse on the smoking.